Ten days ago was my last post. Just ten days ago. Today those ten days seem like years....
Colby had gone in for testing and we were making the very hard decision of pursuing this company that would cost us a fortune but made big promises or not. Ten days ago my life was about Avery's recovery, Colby's special needs, Rusty's 4th birthday, Sydney's growing need to be sassy, Shelby's babyhood, school, my Mom's upcoming petscan, PTA, kids sports and activities and moving. That's all changed now.
Tuesday I rode my kids to school on their bikes and just two hours later our lives changed. My Dad suffered a stroke. The last six days has been about all of the above AND taking care of him. Daily hospital visits that are now skilled nursing center visits, making medical decisions, caring for him and making the very challenging decision about his future...our future...our future with the added element of his care.
I truly believed when I had my kids younger that I wouldn't have the burden of caring for my children and my parents at the very same time. It didn't really work out that way did it?
How can I make decisions about my future when in the last ten days my future changed so much?
How can I give everything to everyone that needs me and not go completely insane?
When do I get to get back to the place where I feel my life goals and accomplishments and my actual life are equal again?
How did I get here?
Right now I just don"t know.
Hopefully ten days from now I will.
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Hang in there.Thinking positive will bring positive. Stepping up to the plate and caring for your father while having such a busy schedule with your own family is what true family is all about. As hard as it is to handle at times, just know at some point your life will be rewarded in some positive way because of your hard work and care. :)You have alot of great friends that are here to lend a hand when needed.keep your head up!
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry to hear that you're sailing rough waters. My prayers are with you and your family. Cling to Jesus, He is faithful and He never disappoints. With God, all thing are possible. What can I do to help? Can I bring you dinner?
ReplyDelete~Rachel
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